生活的意义

life life... when you busy you will be a little bit hard working but when you are free you seem like very very lazy... this semester i just take about 13 credits hour and guess what this 13 credits also include 4 credits for bachelor degree project... then what leave is only 9 credits... what a relax semester and when i rearrage the time table.. monday and tuesday is holiday.. then for wednesday and friday it is a half day class... wh so free untl now i afraid that i will be very lazy... my girl friend will be unhappy when her boy friend is a lazy person and i also don't wish to be that lazy person... so be hard working leh... ganbate kudasai....

just now watch the match between liverpool and arsenal.. the match is so excited... noone can be predit the result until the last moment when mellor score the 2nd point for liverpool and change the draw into win... luck? i guess not for this moment... liverpool player is so cooperate even they had lost so many player that score point for thier team usually but they still not give up when meet the last season champion - arsenal... try hard and teamwork.. what a wonderful formation for liverpool... somehow i guess no matter how bad the luck we are, don't give up the next sunshine will be arrive when the darkness gone.. this is life.. nothing is IMPOSSIBLE and guess what I M POSSIBLE... same word... believe in you when your luck gone... it just a while and not forever....

life is not that easy... yesterday when sek eng and i having tea time at kfc, i saw a walk in interview notice for the vacancy of the assit manager..... so i'm wonder how much they will paid for a assit manager. when i know about the salary for a fast food store like kfc assit manager is just around rm 1300 for the basic salry..... so little... for this amount of salary, let said that everyday about rm 10 have to spend for food and about rm 5 for transport then every month will be rm 300 for food and rm 150 for transport then about rm 150 for the insurance that he had bought. for me i have to paid back about rm 150 for the loan that i had borrow... then let said that about average rm 20 had been spend for cloths per month. if let said that he is not working at his hometown and he has to rent a room and the room just cost about another rm 150 and this can be consider as very cheap already. but before he can spend his money he still need to paid for the e.p.f. and let said that he have to paid about total rm 200 per month. what he leave is just about rm 180. this just the minimum cost that he will be spend, what about when his family member have emergency case or he sick and need to paid for medicine? then if he own a family already then this sure that his wife have to work also... life life...

in this world success not the meaning of you are high educated or you are smart.. but then what success it mean? do anyone find out? have you ever think of that for an enginner can sign on some document and can be approve for his signature how much is his monthly salary...? and how long time that he need to take to climb that high and before that what is his basic salary when he just come out from university? then in his life... i guess everyone need to have his own family so he have his family burden after married, when married sure that he and his wife need a house if not that moment, in future they also need a house... so he need to paid for the house insurance then he also need a car and buy a car... i guess that is what a simple malaysian life nowaday.. right? you guess how many that he can save for the money he earn...? a whole life? what will he left for his family his next generation...? before this engineering really sound intersting... and this job must be a high paid job but in reality does it? no... if compare with other job, engineering still can be consider as a little bit high lah but how about the working load and pressure... technical assit. they have overtime paid but for engineer nope... let said that for and technical assit. they after work and do thier own buniess then the total they earn must be higher then an engineer... what the school teach us...? all already been broken.. some how education might be can be said that it help those rich man to create worker loh... and after education can be thier staff and not teach you how to manage your life and made it comfort... our generation is the generation will face the impact of "infrasi" you know what i mean right? i guess you agree that nowaday for us, if we still single our salary about RM2000 also can not be consider as high paid just can be consider as can just save a little and may be not after minus those ptptn loan, eat, dress, transport and other... but from time to time thing are getting expensive due to the cost of petrol had been increase... the value of RM2000 will be least when inflasi occur....

time... if one day you have the great power to return to the pass when will you go back or the power to go to future then when will you try to reach? return to the past, i guess you must be regret for something so you try to return to that point to change that... but if you really can go back do you think that you will be better at this moment? or you just want try to make your heart feel better? based on the fact fom an artical about time travel, they had mention about even if you when back to your past you also wouldn't change anything and if you do then you wouldn't be you anymore or after that you suck at that world.. if you choose to go to future then i guess you must be too wish to see for your future or may be you hope to know your fate after some year... but without today where come tomorrow and so on.. so you future depend on your hand,... time travel is what i ever want to but which time line i'm going to stop...? back to past? or go to future? i have too many thing that i regret but i can make sure that i wouldn't be based on the same thing to regret once more... and for future... i'm so curiuos but if i know that i'm going to be a rich man then will i be hardworking anymore? i sure that i wouldn't and so do you.. so will you be rich in future? i guess most properly you wouldn't... so try to make use of the time taht going to be gone... there is not such word "now" remember that.. the moment you said "now" already just past and wouldn't stop for you... try not to regret and do your best for future...

second day for the last semester.. today morning class pure mechanical and material mechanical class join together and some old friend meet together.. i guess at this age friend must be the most important thing and the one that you cann't miss at this age.. without friend at this age you will be very boring, without friend your life can be nothing, without friend when you are trouble noone you can look for, without friend when you are happy you cann't share, without friend... you lose yourself... but soemhow people look too much at the apprearence and forget about the inner characteristic for a friend.. if you look pretty or handsome then i will be your friend... why? the world getting change? is it that the outer apprearence so much important? friend, the most important is how the inner characteristic of a person.. even if you look for your life partner try to find one that having a inner beauty then outer beauty.. if both then better lah... you wouldn't regret in future...

today is the beginning of this semester and the last semester... what kind of ways should i take this semester? havn't think of that but what i sure is that i don't wish to regret anymore for what i had done in my university life... so try to play loh... haha... before this really havn't think of that and of a person that always apply only one concept is hard for he or she to change... hope that i really can play play loh and the most important nowaday is that... this semester will be very diffrent if compare with other semester... before this i just alone but now.. i already have girl friend loh.. shall spend time with she and care about she.. if not.. of course i will be very regret that for future lah.... haha...

in this world everything have it own opposite side like human... boy and girl then other other thing... so most of the time we just think that for the problem and the solution only can be right and wrong... like for colour there only black or white loh... but do you ever think that beside white and black there is a zone that you not notice and most of the time we will be at that zone? that zone is gray.. when black and white mix there will be gray... if we just consider of a view then we might said that this is right or this is wrong loh... but in reality is it that everything only have a single view? no... most of them are more then one..... just you not notice about that before... so what we can said is that there will no absolute correct or wrong loh.....

life is almost like this when you play hard and without lluck you really cann't win loh... same with a simple game loh... sometime without luck you really cann't win no matter how hard you had try... like today football match between liverpool and middlesbrough, last football match they already lost thier last forward player and can be consider as this week they don't have the luck even thier main midfielder steven gerrad already back in action... from what they play can see that they had try thier best to form back the team what happen.. they lose... due to no luck...

another time that me and steven go to Batu Pahat at night to have a drink and only a drink there.. i guess this was one of the crazy thing that we had done in these five year in university life... yesterday night that was our third time to have a drink or visit Batu Pahat... actually from our place to Batu Pahat town center it take more then 20 km and the moment we went there is at nigfht and only with my bike... crazy crazy if one day i think it back... we had talk about many thing there.. difference topic... and i found that steven really difference and totally difference now... that a good thing loh. but there is something loh i guess steven really wish that i can be one of them.. what i try to mean is that he wish that i can be a christian too like what he now.. i guess i shouldn't said that because from the moment i know him, he already a christian... just now he start to believe loh... and active... i not reject or anything just i guess the important thing is that every religion is try to make human understand to be good and every religion can be said that that religion is the bad loh just the problem is human.. human make it blur and the next generation cann't understand it original theory there.. for me, as long as my religion is good that already enough.. hope that he can understand about that....

feel sad today after yesterday conversation with my mum... don't know what ti do and what should i do may be time will let me know what to do... may be.. just can hope like this and no more... soon will be the new semester and will be the last semester.. what i had done in this few year, i also don't know so much... university, haha i haven't have that kind of university life before.. what is a university life? i can surely tell you that i don't know... that why i promise to myself that if one day i go further my study i will try to find a place where i can feel the university life... but now the most important thing is that .... what should i do after i graduate for the university... three month from now.. hope that there will